Letting go is difficult. It can break your heart, break your spirit, and send you in a whirlwind of new, and sometimes very familiar, emotions. Letting go is also freeing though. As you release what you cling to, you are also being released yourself.
Letting go doesn't mean giving up. It is simply giving God control. An act of surrender. Thus allowing him to move freely in you, and allowing you room to breathe and relax.
I often have little to say about HOW I create what I create. It's hard to explain I guess. It just sort of...happens. This painting began with little direction. I had no ideas of what I wanted to do or where I wanted to go with it. I chose to focus on a word: "breathe." I love that word. So often I the most important thing I can do is remind myself to breathe. Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale. In letting go, I sometimes find myself holding my breath, fighting emotions or bracing myself for what is to come. Conscious and intentional breathing relaxes me. It helps me to focus. It helps me remember that it's okay to let go because God is in control. And there is so much freedom in knowing and believing that. I don't have to have it all together. I don't have to find a way to make this happen. I don't have to know what the future holds, because Someone is already holding it for me and preparing me for it.
All I have to do is breathe.
"Relax in the knowledge that the One who controls your life is totally trustworthy." [Jesus Calling, May 5th]
